The Karavan and me

And here’s the romance between the trailer and me … Yesterday it was passed into the trustworthy hands of the appropriate buyer.

It was exciting and liberating to pass on my passenger home to a person who starts moving with him at a timing similar to the one I was at the beginning of the journey:

Exciting was the understanding that this kind of movement experience had exhausted itself for me, and that the urge to continue on another channel that the road offers had matured…

Releasing was the sense of relief and expansion that gripped me as I watched the moving trailer… At that time I realized that even it had become for me, a kind of burden, excess weight that does not allow me to ‘fly’ higher …

Two are three

Two of them are one? Do not think so… Two of them are two? Neither do I… Two are three? Yes, this is the magic equation that’s been revealed to me these days…

Two are consolidated by a third party, which is the author’s glue, but also that of the separation creator…

From the connection the separation is created, and from the separation

the connection is created…

In order for this equation to be allowed, three who do not disappear, but are actually present in full…. When one of its components disappears, we will not be able to make

a complete quality…

An equation without disappearing….desire of the Soul…

 

The Choice of Life

The Choice of Life… a familiar and perhaps even worn combination, but, today as I walk through it again, I am reminded that how much is worn so real and deep…

In my experience, this is the Mother of all Choices and it is made in the most intimate moments of a person with himself… There are no room for anyone else in those  moments… And sometimes the price is heavy…

Choosing life demands different liberations from us and facing full responsibility for ourselves, our ways and everything it contains …

Routine

The days pass through a new routine … I try to be inside it and not to run away from it … A lesson that was not very simple for me to this day, and it seems to me that this time I will succeed for a while, and I will be able to signify a meaningful V …

I wonder how simple and easy for one person is a challenge to another person …

What characterizes this routine is my ability to take a step back, adjust to, adapt myself and be led by other people, external occurrences and relatively dictated frameworks … For me, this is a kind of self-victory, mental health and experience that balances many years of lack Routine, intense movement and motivation to ‘reinvent myself’ again and again …

Interpersonal communication without digital mediation, closeness, and human encounters have become the main tools on which I can no longer compromise, even here in the center of the country (which obviously requires more intent than in the south of the country).

Learns to respect the simple life, without dramas, and those that bring some quiet, but at the same time continues in my musical and spiritual pursuits … experiencing a kind of expansion born out of the previous contraction, strengthening, rooting and at the same time rising with a new nuance … feeling that all These new experiences add to those I already knew, and increase the range of possibilities available to me …

From this place, it is comfortable and convenient for me to visit the Karavan and the beach where it stands every week (I hope that in the spring I will return to move with it), and yet begin to ‘squint’ to the next destination – Tel Aviv, where I lived a great part of my life …

I found that in the Shapira neighborhood in the south of the city (which I have known since my youth), there is an interesting mixture of urban quality (probably) and the quality of Mitzpe Ramon…

Maybe there I’ll find the Blue Bird waiting for me on a window?…

 

The conference

Before I ‘landed’ from the trip in India, I found myself last Thursday, instructing activities that had already been set up two months ago, to a group of people based on my new musical workshop model:

Body Insight & Sound

As part of the conference ‘The Negev Communities Conference leads a change’, held in Yeruham.

During the course of the activity I felt how the energy I absorbed and ‘brought with me’ from India only intensified and sharpened the understanding that my ‘spirit’s practice’ is, first and without a doubt, the music …

And what also connected for me to India was the colorfulness of the space in which I was instructing the activity, which was determined by the organizers of the conference, without my knowledge …

flight

Tomorrow morning I will get on a connection flight to Delhi and thence into India.

Although I have not been out of this country for five years, flights have been a central part of my life, and the noises of planes taking off and crossing the sky and sonic booms were the soundtrack of my early childhood …

I was born no less and no more, at Tel Nof  Air Force Base, since my father was a pilot and Deputy Squadron Commander of the Nordic squadron, which no longer exists, but which I remember because of their unique shape … I did not know then a reality that was not connected to discussions and talks about aerial demonstration and flight operation.

When I was eight, we moved to Ramat Hasharon, my father became a pilot at El Al, and the airports turned from military to civilian … From that year until his death I was able to fly with him, with my parents and with my brother and sister, and later alone, with my spouse and with my children once or twice a year to various continents and countries …

In the army, when I set to be a personal affairs commander,, in  the Air Force Base  Sde – Dov and the soldiers tried to make me excited to get into airplanes or to fly in one of the base helicopters, I could not get excited … all I wanted was to quietly finish the service with my lack of adaptation profile ( and the 21 profile over my head all the time) and continue with my life …

My favorite place in the plane is the cockpit, to which I have been invited many times by my father, since it allows me to feel like I am in a spaceship and to demonstrate the most complete experience of cruising and floating in endless space …

When my dear friend Avi Gil built my effects box of my electric guitars years ago, I called it ‘the cockpit’ and when I first came to the caravan factory a few months ago and went into one of the caravans to see its interior, I felt that both the aesthetics and the energy in the caravan reminded me of the inside of the plane And this cockpit  again…

In my eyes, this description is another performance of the supreme spiral movement that brings us through our lives to more and more sophisticated frequencies, and the higher we rise, an experience that seems, seemingly similar, is actually more accurate and complete than the one before it …

Communication

The last four years have been the most intense in my life in the sense of closing and opening circles: I released my previous life in the center of the country and my marriage, moved to Mitzpeh Ramon, created personal relationships and working connections in many frameworks in the community, I left all the places of work, bought a house and established the ‘Observation Space’ where I guided, taught and treated with tools from the worlds of music and mysticism. Two and a half years later I sold the house and most of its contents, I ordered and planned a caravan to be used as a residence, I built a model for a workshop product in the fields of music and mysticism which I can implement when I will live in the caravan and other occurrences while ….

When I look at this intensely today I see that what guided me in it, more than anything else, was the quality of communication between me and the surroundings… As the quality of communication with each person, factor or establishment with whom I conducted a personal, creative and professional dialogue was higher, That way I could have been longer in the circle where it took place …

In my experience, when the communication is natural, simple and open, it enables sequence, continuity, movement and growth, and when it is not, it is stuck, blocked and dissipated …

Communication may be blocked in the first stage when a person does not allow the information directed to him in any way – words, message, look, body language, emotional expression, touch – to enter and internalize it. In my feeling, the reasons for this arise in many cases out of fear of various kinds, from the difficulty of containing and perhaps also the fear of taking responsibility for this information and acting in its wake …

If the information penetrates and is assimilated, it may still be blocked in the second stage if there is no Response, responsiveness, reference in the repeated communication … This blockage may be created for the simple reason of not being available and also again, in my feeling, of fear – the fear of being To be not precise, misunderstood, not clever and not interesting, not to respond ‘correctly’ and perhaps even to the simple fear of ‘making a voice,’ which may lead to an act … because make a voice and the act of doing can reverberate ourselves (a situation in which there is no ‘way back’ or ‘escape hatches’) and provoke a reaction from the world again, so that the movement will continue and we will be more exposed …

I believe that being more exposed means being more sensitive to ourselves and to each other, and at the same time stronger, and therefore are even more daring to communicate from this exposed, sensitive place without being hurt …

In my eyes, only communication that is similar to a ‘ping-pong’ game that has no winners or losers, may create strong, meaningful, empowering and comforting relationships …

The continuum

One of the things I have  learned from personal experience during my lifetime, is that the way that I have passed and is still passing is, in fact, one whole continuum, and treating every change as a new way is not true in my world view.

If we imagine ourselves as that eagle gliding from above and looking at the whole picture, we can see that every occurrence in our lives is related to the occurrence that preceded it, and therefore will probably be related to the occurrence that will follow it …

Change, in fact, as I see it, is a kind of turn or move to another place, to another occupation, to another way of life, to another relationship, born from the extraction of the previous step, and at the same time a direct continuation of it.

Like a river changing paths for various reasons, without sharp passages, within the channel where it flows, so there are no ‘cuts’ in our journey. These cuts, which we sometimes produce, are an illusion to me, and it is precisely because of them that we may relate to the changes in these paths as terminal or as death after which there is nothing.

In my belief, understanding the continuum makes it easier and allows for a life of freedom and movement at the appropriate pace and dosage …

הרצף

אחד הדברים אותם למדתי על בשרי במהלך חיי הוא שהדרך אותה עברתי ועדיין עוברת היא, בעצם, רצף אחד שלם, וההתייחסות לכל שינוי כדרך חדשה, איננו נכון בתפיסת עולמי.

אם נדמיין את עצמינו כאותו הנשר הדואה ממעל ונתבונן על התמונה כולה, נוכל לראות שכל התרחשות בחיינו קשורה להתרחשות שקדמה לה ולכן, מן הסתם, תהיה קשורה גם להתרחשות שתגיע אחריה…

שינוי, כפי שאני רואה זאת, הוא בעצם סוג של תפנית או של תזוזה למקום אחר, לעיסוק אחר, לאורח חיים אחר, לקשר אחר, הנולדות מתוך מיצוי המהלך הקודם ובו זמנית המשך ישיר שלו.

כמו נהר המשנה נתיבים מסיבות שונות, ללא מעברים חדים, בתוך הערוץ בו הוא זורם, כך אין ‘חיתוכים’ במסע שלנו. חיתוכים אילו, אותם אנחנו מייצרים לעתים, הם אשליה בעיני, ודווקא בגללם אנחנו עלולים להתייחס לשינויי הנתיבים הללו כסופניים או כמוות שאחריו אין כלום.

באמונה שלי, הבנת הרצף מקלה ומאפשרת חיים של חופש ושל תנועה בקצב ובמינון המתאימים לנו…

Dynamics and the seventh note

During the process of change that I am undergoing, I feel more and more that even though he is experienced in me first as private, it is actually part of a broader dynamic that takes place around us.

It is presumptuous and impossible to me, to define this dynamic clearly and, of course, there is no way to prove its existence, but many of the people close to me and others describe events and dramatic steps that take place at this time in their lives.

My feeling is ‘tsunami’, In other words, in my experience, this is a gradual process, which started when it was ‘small’ in the past and is growing stronger.

I believe that we have two options – one, to ride this wave as it rises, and the second, let it pass over us. For me, the first option is preferable, that is, to move with this ‘tailwind’ and devote myself to it…

One of the insights I had about the peak of this tsunami is, that it can be also related to the ‘seventh note frequency’ of the Major and the Minor musical scales. That is, on any musical scale of these kinds has seven basic notes, when the seventh note is the one that creates tension and discomfort, towards the first note that would follow it again, but at a higher octave, which will bring comfort and peace.

And once again, the music became an exact mirror for me (and I believe not only for me) to these vast and huge processes that we are all, in any case, part of them…