The body as a tool

For many years, I have treated my body as marginal in relation to the emotional, intellectual, and especially spiritual spaces, which I have ‘cleaned’, nurtured, and raised …

Following the massive and intensive release of material of every kind that has been present in my life lately, which includes many of the various devices and tools that have served me in my creative, teaching, therapeutic and personal doing for many years, strengthened the insight in me that, ultimately, the most meaningful and essential tool with which I can implement and act is this body of mine …

In addition to being a tool through which I transmit messages, images and sounds, and  through which I produce words, voice and rhythm, experience, feel and communicate, my body will soon become almost my ‘home,’ and therefore I must respect it, as it is, for its abilities and limitations, more than ever…

In my experience today, the body is the most sophisticated and efficient conductor between person and person, and between heaven and earth …

Fear and Anxiety

Recently, more than in previous times, I observe and try to understand the difference between fear and Anxiety …

I admit that fear is far less familiar to me than anxiety. Of course, like all human beings, there is fear in me, but both in the past and in on these days of significant change in my life, it does not run me, to my delight, while anxiety sometimes arises in me.

This observation reinforces my perception that fear too high dose, That is, one that does not fulfill its function only as a warning light, but increases beyond that, becoming a contractionary and inhibitory energy that does not allow actualization and action.

The ‘danger’ of anxiety, in my experience, is its ability to overwhelm and cause excess vitality, whereas when balanced, it stimulates movement and the impulse to act and to change, when correct and appropriate, which can bring more and more to a place of quiet and comfort …

And again, it turns out, it’s all about doses …

Release

I’ve been busy releasing my previous life for a few months now. The process of liberation is spiral, in my experience, like a reincarnation in a reincarnation, and therefore, it is actually a direct continuation of previous releases I have known in the past, although now it is more intense, powerful and conscious …

Releasing  the grip on walls, appropriation of land and Infinite objects of all kinds and species (for example, twenty-two shelves of books I have collected over thirty-five years have now become six).

Liberating my beloved children (the connection between us is probably beyond  than time and place) than ever before, on their way, and the dog (who found him, to my delight, a wide courtyard and a stable and loving home).

Releasing more and more old places inside me, more and more expectations, more and more delusional thoughts, more and more charges, blockages, protections and peels that are not needed and some are not even mine …

I believe that the ability to initiate and  invite these releases, preventing them from arriving one day ‘by surprise’, shaking and leaving no choice… The release, even if painful and not simple sometimes, is like magic that creates closeness, intimacy, choice and freedom …

The Voice

In the midst of the intense events taking place in my life these days, I found myself playing and singing with enthusiasm and passion, materials I wrote and composed in the last two years … Playing on the new synthesizer I bought is very challenging and instructive, but the experience of singing repeats and strikes me a lot more …

It is possible to say that once again I discovered the power of the voice as a tool that reverberates the frequencies, sounds, words and rhythms that carry healing energy and elevates the spirit – I feel that more than any other instrument I have, my voice is the channel through which I can give in the most complete, open and free manner …

Cypresses and cacti

Thinking about the cypress trees We grew up around our house in Moshav Beit HaLevi, where we lived eleven years, and who also decorated the “Sgula space” – Arts and Spirit, that I established and managed during the years in the area behind our house. The cypresses almost reached their peak height and erectness when we left …

I think in the same breath about the cactus and succulent pots I nurtured in my home in the “Observation space” – Music and Mysticism, that I established and managed in Mitzpe Ramon over the past four years.  I will leave them behind too soon when I will leave again …

And despite the pain of parting, I know that both the cypresses and the cactuses have received all the attention and love I could give, and they will continue to grow under the care of others.

In my experience, the movement requires a transition through pain and sadness, while simultaneously growing and strengthening …

Uncertainty

One of the most significant challenges for me these days is the ‘frontal encounter’ with uncertainty. This is probably not the first time in my life that I have been through such an experience, but this time I feel that I am ready to devote myself to it more than before –  the question: where will the road lead? More present than ever…

This devotion makes it possible, in my feeling, to live as authentic as possible, even if not simple and anxiety-provoking (which leads ahead, unlike the paralyzing fear), from time to time …

I believe that the ability to allow things to ‘happen’, while moving and doing, to be ‘hand in hand’ with observation and freedom of choice, may be accurate in ‘closing the circle’ in this incarnation and releasing the soul from the body, at the right time and manner…

Unity and freedom

Following my departure from Mitzpe and my future intention to live in a caravan, I find myself conducting powerful and meaningful conversations with close and less close people, which raise wonders, thoughts, desires and dreams of each of the partners in these conversations, especially with regard to the concept of ‘freedom’.

It turns out that freedom is a ‘sought-after commodity’, and a type of human common denominator that is more or less hidden, when facing him stands the fear of losing what exists and living in isolation and loneliness …

In my experience, the choice of freedom or freedom of choice is actually a ‘recipe’ for creating unity – the more we allow our self a life of freedom, the more we will be precise with the relation to the place and to the people in it.

It is like an eagle that glides in the sky in an open space and maybe even infinite, and dives down in moments when it identifies prey that will nourish it and allow it to fly back up, continue to glide …

Movement

The desire to implement the dialogue between presence and movement led me to Eilat’s industrial zone, to the work of a recommended caravan builder, in order to understand what it means to build a trailer according to my needs and my beloved partners…

It will be a traveling home that enables a relatively free life, from holding on to land, place, belonging and community, and at the same time connecting even more to people who need guidance, teaching, spiritual care and counseling in a much less limited space.

I understood again that we can find practical solutions, more and more precise, that bring heaven closer to the earth – that merges between the role for which we were sent and its realization …

Omads

In the process of liberation and change that I am experiencing these days, once again in my life, I have understood at a deeper level than ever, what is the meaning of wandering, regarding:

Nomadism is the winning combination between the times when it is right to be present – to ‘be there’ Fully and completely, to take root and to ground, and the times when it is necessary to produce both internal and external movement, to Go with the wind…

The choice ‘to be’ allows movement and vice vers. ..

‘Unwraping the wires’

Although it will take some time for me to sell the house and leave Mitzpeh Ramon, I feel privileged to thank this unique and dear oasis which was my home for four years, and the wide and open-hearted people living there …

I have given everything that could have been received, as of now, and the road is open for further journey and giving in other places, but I know that my ‘romance’ with Mitzpe does not end, Just changing angle…